I guess this is the time where all the student fear most (for those who just finish their final yr exam).
Getting your results BACK!
Oh,yes.. For me, im very scared. Not scared. TERRIFIED. But then,
somehow i dont worry that much. Not because im very sure that i will get excellent results and
i will pass with flying colours. No...
Its because i trust Him. He assures me and ask me not to worry so much. =)
I admit, i got back few subjects. If you ask me, i will said i havent. Coz this isnt the whole thing.
If you get what i mean. And sad to say, i wasnt quite happy with my marks. I was disappointed with myself and i was just so upset. The marks.. Is not what i imagined. Its horrible actually..
First class students arent suppose to get THAT kind of results. After i get my results, studying seems pointless to me and i was going to give up. Really. I was thinking, If i already work so hard and still i didnt get the result that i wanted, whats the point of studying anymore? It tires me and make me feel so disappointed and i dont know.. Its so un-descibable. My emotions are all mixed up. Like rojak. Well, some part of it is my fault. I shouldnt have procrastinate and study so very last minute. Theres nothing i can do right? What is done cannot be undone. Just need to trust Him.

What i realised:
Is that, doing your best is all that matters most. You did your best, im sure God is proud of you. No point being so upset and unhappy, life goes on. It cant change your marks even if you cry everyday over your marks. Besides, theres one more year to work really hard. And the most important thing is SPM and trials. That will determine where you go and what you do next time. If you are not staying for Form 6 lar. And studying isnt everything, spiritual growth is way more important than that. Right? Even if you fail, pick yourself up and try again. Its not the end of the world right? Just need to put your tust in Him and be grateful with whatever marks you get. =D

What people will say:
You know, when you get horrible results, the first thing you want to do is hide yourself. Keep all your marks to yourself. And not say a word. Thats what i do. And yet, i still do it. I cant stop myself from doing it. Well, if you tell them, they will say things like: its okay, try again, theres always next time, you did your best, studying isnt everything, dont worry im sure you will score well in spm, life goes on and bla..bla..bla.. Dont you get bored of hearing the same thing over and over again? Anyway, some insensitive people will say: Oh you know, i get 87 for my ..... and im so sad. why cant i do better?, my results so badlar. i get 89 for my... , or im sure you did okay and did you know i get.... for my.... ? When you need encouragement, they keep on rubbing it in. Argh. Feel like kicking them and say Why cant you guys be grateful??? But, you cant do it.. Except keeping quiet. Its very funny actually, you need consoling but they never realise it even if they are your friends. They just go on and on and on and on about their marks and like ignoring you.

Conclusion:
Well, if you see me, please dont ask about my result? Pretty pretty please with sugar on top of it? I dont feel like talking about them =S really! Anyway, if you need to ask, ask lar.. I wont tell you the marks. =D Hhahah.. I am really okay. Im fine now. For the past few days, ive been okay, not depressed or anything. I guess, i got over it. =) I think.. Hahaha.. =) 0 comments